In the Uncertainty

“We are not uncertain of God, just uncertain what He is going to do next. . .But when we have a right relationship with God, life is full of spontaneous, joyful uncertainty and expectancy… Leave everything to Him and it will be gloriously and graciously uncertain how He will come– but you can be certain He will come. . .”

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Slowly Returning

It has been a while since I have used this space. It has been a season full of life around here. By that I mean the good and the hard that life brings. But I want to return here, slowly. So today, I start with the song that I am playing on repeat around here. Kristen DiMarco singing “It Is Well.”


Grander earth has quaked before
Moved by the sound of His voice
Seas that are shaken and stirred
Can be calmed and broken for my regard
Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
Through it all, through it all
It is well
Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
It is well with me
Far be it from me to not believe
Even when my eyes can’t see
And this mountain that’s in front of me
Will be thrown into the midst of the sea
So let go my soul and trust in Him
The waves and wind still know His name
It is well with my soul
It is well with my soul
It is well with my soul
It is well, it is well with my soul


We continue to live in this season reflecting on the Great Waiting of humanity.

Before Christ was born, humanity waited for the Savior to come.

Now, those of us who now live after Christ’s resurrection, have the gift of working alongside Him in the world bringing his love and Kingdom. But we still live in waiting. We live in a broken world, with broken relationships, and broken pieces within ourselves. In our cities, we long for healing and justice and we join in the great tradition of active, prayerful waiting.

We wait, because as John said, “Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is.” (1 John 3:2).

And as Paul said: For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away. . .For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.” (1 Corinthians 13:9-10,12).

We are not alone in our waiting. The following are some of the voices of scripture who waited. I spent  time this afternoon joining those voices in prayer, a few are listed below.

Read through them slowly, prayerfully, as voices of fellow sojourners walking an aching path across history.

Please answer me: Don’t give up. Wait for the Eternal in expectation, and be strong. Again, wait for the Eternal. (Ps. 27:4– The Voice)

If someone dies, will they live again? All the days of my hard service I will wait for my renewal to come. (Job 14:14)

In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. (Ps. 5:3)

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. (Ps. 27:14)

We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield. (Ps. 33:20)

Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. (Ps. 37:7)

Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; therefore he will rise up to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him! (Isaiah 30:18)

My righteousness draws near speedily, my salvation is on the way, and my arm will bring justice to the nations. The islands will look to me and wait in hope for my arm. (Isaiah 51:5)

Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you, who acts on behalf of those who wait for him. (Isaiah 64:4) 

But you must return to your God; maintain love and justice, and wait for your God always. (Micah 12:6) 

Not only so, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption to sonship, the redemption of our bodies. (Romans 8:23)

 May you be blessed with grace, peace, and a steadfast spirit in your personal waitings, and in our collective waitings. 

An Advent Reflection

first snow-12Advent, in our faith tradition is time of great waiting. It is holding our breath and waiting for Emmanuel, God-with-us to arrive. It is carrying a great hope through our ordinary, everyday moments. There is a focus on justice, healing, truth, and all of the things that Christ will bring. It is opening ourselves honestly to the pain and struggle of our lives and the world and praying “Come, Lord, Jesus.”

There is a steadfast patience and a desperate cry.

Then there is a humble baby, sleeping in a feeding trough, who has come to call us to freedom, unconditional love, and light.

But sometimes this gets lost in the rush and wild frenzy of Christmas plans and preparations.

In this season, I wanted to offer a time to pause, sit with God in the midst of all this season carries this year.

Below is a selected reading from Isaiah 11:1-10. Spend some time reading it through slowly. Maybe even incorporate Lectio Divina into your reading time.

Isaiah 11:1-10,

But on this humbled ground, a tiny shoot, hopeful and promising, will sprout from Jesse’s stump;

A branch will emerge from his roots to bear fruit.
And on this child from David’s line, the Spirit of the Eternal One will alight and rest. By the Spirit of wisdom and discernment

He will shine like the dew.

By the Spirit of counsel and strength

He will judge fairly and act courageously.

By the Spirit of knowledge and reverence of the Eternal One, He will take pleasure in honoring the Eternal.

He will determine fairness and equity;
He will consider more than what meets the eye,

And weigh in more than what he’s told.
So that even those who can’t afford a good defense

will nevertheless get a fair and equitable judgment.
With just a word, He will end wickedness and abolish oppression.

With nothing more than the breath of His mouth, He will destroy evil. He will clothe himself with righteousness and truth;

the impulse to right wrongs will be in his blood.

A day will come when the wolf will live peacefully beside the wobbly-kneed lamb, and the leopard will lie down with the young goat;

The calf and yearling, newborn and slow, will rest secure with the lion; and a little child will tend them all.

Bears will graze with the cows they used to attack; even their young will rest together,
and the lion will eat hay, like gentle oxen.

Neither will a baby who plays next to a cobra’s hole
nor a toddler who sticks his hand into a nest of vipers suffer harm.

All my holy mountain will be free of anything hurtful or destructive, for as the waters fill the sea,

The entire earth will be filled with the knowledge of the Eternal. Then on that day, that root from Jesse’s line

will stand as a signal for the peoples of the world Who will come to Him seeking guidance and direction;

and glory will be restored to the land where He resides.


After you have spent some time in the scripture, pray through the following questions:

  • What do you hold in hopeful waiting this Advent season?
  • What do you desire from God for the next few weeks as we celebrate the long-awaited
    coming of Jesus? In what ways can you clear space for and await Jesus in your life?
  • In what simple ways can you mark the coming days as different?
  • What does God invite you to in this time? If you accept that invitation what will you have to disengage from or say no to?first snow-22

Hope in the Midst of Rumors

This city is starting to rumble.

There is word that the verdict on Officer Darren Wilson will be released next week. There are rumors of what the implications will be on St. Louis.

Rumors fly of planned buses of people coming in to destroy, of organized looting, vandalism, and targeted people groups.

Whatever comes in the next few weeks, know that there is more to the story than you will hear in the news.

There are groups across the city that are gathering regularly to work through a long history of segregation and racism. There are churches that live on the lines of racial divides and do the long, hard work of reconciliation regularly.

In my community, there is an organization called the “Alliance for Interracial Dignity.” It began in 2012, recognizing that there was a need for talks and healing.

They exist for “bringing communities together by learning from our collective past, challenging the racial status quo and building strong community.”

I’ve sat in church basements or meeting rooms with them as we discussed some emotionally charged issues. We watched a film on “White Privilege” together and sat in groups of mixed skin tones discussing our unique and collective experiences.

There is a strength and grace in people willing to meet together to learn from each other. It’s messy and it’s beautiful.

We are talking community members of all races and life experiences sitting together.

There are community leaders and police officers who care and are involved.

I listened the last time we met as an African American community member told the story of the way her son had been treated disrespectfully by a police officer simply for driving in her neighborhood.

Then watch as a leader in that Police department handed her his contact information and vowed to work alongside her to bring justice and healing into that situation.

It’s slow. It’s real people, flesh and blood, sitting alongside each other and telling stories, learning different perspectives, and putting down their guards.

My son interrupted me a while ago, because he really wanted to sing me a song he learned at church. It was perfect and I think I will end with his song:

“My God is so Big

So strong and so mighty,

There’s nothing my God cannot do.”

The Quiet of A Rainy Day

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It’s rainy and calm today.  After the 30 days of writing, I’m enjoying the space away from this little blog. Working on some other projects, with a Prayer and Art class coming up this Thursday.

The kids are resting and I am soaking in the serene gift of slowing down. Truly, “He Himself is our peace” (Eph. 2:14).

With this song on repeat, as I work and pray.


“Sure” featuring Anabeth Morgan

Sure as the waves will reach the shore. Sure as the sun paints the morning sky. Sure as the sunset gives way to evening songs and moonlight bathes the earth in gentle light.

You’re the anchor that’s holding me.

I’m sure of Your faithfulness. I’m sure that You will never change. My Lord, You won’t give up on me. You won’t give up on me.

Sure as my life is in Your hands. Sure as Your sacrifice has set me free. When all is shaking, Lord Your love stands firm. Your spirit calms my heart and steadies me. (x2)

You’re the anchor that’s holding me.

I’m sure of Your faithfulness. I’m sure that You will never change. My Lord, You won’t give up on me. (x2)

You won’t give up on me.

You don’t give up on me.

You won’t ever change.

I’m sure of Your faithfulness. I’m sure that You will never change. My Lord, You don’t give up on me.

I’m sure, you will never change.

You don’t give up on me. (x6)

When all is shaking, Lord Your love stands firm. Your spirit calms my heart and steadies me. When all is shaking, still Your love stands firm. Your spirit calms my heart and steadies me. Come and steady me. Come and steady me. You can steady me.

Be my portion Lord, be the thing that steadies me, the rock that can’t be moved, Lord.